Why

Wow, I really strayed off into the fog with this blog spot. I tried to use this as a way to replace myspace, but the experiment failed. I doubt anyone is reading this (Maybe a jealous ex boyfriend or broken contact too chicken shit to talk me). Don't worry if I called you out, your only human. We all have our curiosities. The persona that this blog takes on, also asorbes all characteristics of the Queen. I am: envious, controlling and over indulging, from time to time. Inverted.

Nothing too big has happened to me in the last ten months. I moved and I am going to a much bigger, much richer university. The first semester was baptism by fire. I had about three emotional break downs a month. This was mostly due to my over zealous and pompous attitude towards my professional writing skills. (Not the blogs. Blog land is my land baby. Grammar and professional writing goes out the window) I quickly learned in my Literature theory class (it is like philosophy of English classes) that my writing skills were not as impressive as I deemed them to be. Dr. O really beat me up with 'grades of self loathing'. At first, I hated him. Now, I respect the man. I was so distressed during this class because my professor was trying to weed the garden. This English class was the make it or break it for the major. I made it out with a B, and I almost had a stroke, when I saw my grades. I did not expect to receive straight B's. Not when with classes like Literature theory or Japanese (Ohh my language skills are so terrible).

So here I am, heading into the last month of my second semester. I feel more connection with these classes. One thing I have learned from Appstate, that GTCC did not teach me is: Your grades can change at the drop of a hat.

Hopefully- I will be able to post a blog once a week!

The Gap between

Breaking promises is no foreign concept towards me; my own personal goals get smashed all the time. I kind of think that is a common human goal, to get so over taken with the world around us. Anyways, I said I would blog every day and about two weeks came and went with missing posts. Here is what everyone missed out on:

• I went to Animazement with a couple of wonderful friends, we got lost on the way..a lot. We all dressed up: I was Mine from Fruits basket and L was Ayame. I think we were one of the best anime 'couples' out there. Though, I did see a few very clever costumes that were either group or couples. Her boyfriend decided to be a whale..I worked on that tale for about three days straight and in the car on the way. It made me sad because no one knew what he was supposed to be or anything. I suppose that is just what you get from these cons though. Sometimes the stupidest stuff is what seems to be a hit. I really don't know if I can keep going to them, I had fun and everything. It is just the other guests that bother me, they are so immature. I feel sometimes that I might of outgrown anime; though I still love it. Finding a good anime for me these days seems to be few and far between. Oh well, that does not mean that I still do not love the classics. I mean, I grew up on Sailor Moon and Miyazaki works.
  
  
  • I have to go to my college orientation on Friday, and that is something that I do not look forward too. I want to go to this school and just get on with everything but I hate all the mass chaos. Following the 'rules' and red tape just to be free you know. I believe the thing that I dislike most about that morning is having to get up at like 5:00 Am. The orientation lasts from 9 to 5 and that is something that seems very lengthy. I mean, I have been to college before: I know every case is different. You just cannot fit everyone into one box. Oh well..maybe I will get free stuff from it.
    
    
    • Work is work..I just want to get out of there but im having the money issues. I have no clue what is wrong with me either, I use to be great at keeping my wallet together. Damn you capitalists and your need to do direct deposit. I was so great at telling the bank how much of MY money I wanted to deposit. Not having that order really screws me up. Im pretty sure that I have a new system set into motion. I just hope it works for me..because extra money would be great this fall considering; that I will be unemployed for the first semester.
      
      I believe...that is everything for now..Until we meet again.
      
      - QP

Queen of Pentacles-Who?

I believe that now is the time, to talk about why I choose a persona known as the Queen of Pentacles. Let me start from the creation here; this queen comes from the Tarot deck. She is apart of the pentacle or 'coin' suit which corresponds with the element of Earth. Any card under this suit normally relates to wealth and health in some manner. One of my books describes her as: " A generous woman who is also an excellent manager in practical and financial areas. She may be a sensual woman who is at home in her body and enjoys her creature comforts. As an adviser, she favors the querent or will at least be fair. She is pragmatic and realistic and wants to see that the money she distributes produces tangible results. If the card doesn't represent a person, it shows a harvest after much labor, security, and prudent use of resources." This card used to come up often in my readings. The average person will have many different ruling cards through out there life. I just seem to identify strongly with her, and well, I do admire her. So this is why I refer to myself as The Queen of Pentacles. I feel, that I am a rather earthy person.

Well Why Blog?

Some say that we are seeing the end of Myspace, and I know that Facebook has taken over the Internet. I'm sorry to say, but I prefer to let my emotions out into the open, because I am that kind of person. I guess? Anyways, I have started up this blog for several different reasons: I am getting ready to go a more advanced college, Myspace is in death's grapple, and well I just like to 'hear' myself talk. No one can read this blog and I am completely content with it.
The idea that I am leaving in August and is something that terrifies me. I wished for this day and now that it's finally flying right at me; I feel so somber. You see, I am not much of a personable individual, I like to keep my distance from people. I happened to finally fall into a crowd of support and these friends wouldn't let me put up any walls. They warped my sense of personal space, and this is something that I needed. So I believe that is is the most unfortunate circumstance, the people I have been looking for all my life, finally found me and its time for me to leave. It's depressing, I know, but this change will help me grow up. So to that tiny circle of dice rolling nerds, thank you for being there. I was wrong about my feelings, you are not the dime a dozen friends. You are all the rare coin in the collection and I will miss each and everyone of you. Thank you for the good times, the bad times, and the in between. I know this summer will be one of the happiest that I have ever had.
The point of this blog is, a place for me to go and record each and every day of this breath taking summer. With Myspace on life support, I feel that it was just time to expand my audience from just 'friends' to everyone. As I had stated before, I am indifferent to who reads my posts. These blogs are for my two month journey, in which I reflect every day. So when its snowy and I am at college, I can just pull these up and relive my summer hours.
My writing skills are always open for review and improvement. I would like to think that someday,I will be a decent writer. However, being a college student it is so much easier for me to take out my training and just write up a paper. Focusing on being more creative and personal with my 'penmen ship' is the theme of this summer. So speak up if you do not care for something or want me to expand. I will come right out and say that my grammar skills are lacking, and well I will be loose on that subject. My main focus with this blog is to get a type of writer signature style or experiment with the way I tell a story. I want someone to read my work and think: "Oh it's that silly Queen of Pentacles girl!". That is my goal anyways, but I do understand that writing takes time. So I plan to keep a blog about every day of this summer. Some blogs may be a page long, while others are a few sentences. Please just bare with me.

Thankyou!
QP<3